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And I perpetuated the cycle of unreal expectations and ideals. Homosexuality is acknowledged narcissism and guys tend to seek out others like themselves. So I tried to be like the guys I wanted to attract. I can work out obsessively; I can take shirtless, faceless selfies of myself and plaster them across the internet; I can pretend to be masculine, but I can't be something I'm not. I can't be white, I can't be the masculine ideal others want me to be, I can't live my life by rigid standards to which I never subscribed.
It's all a game and I tried to play by the rules. Not so at first. I tried to be myself, or rather, to represent myself as truthfully as I could. Even the truth requires the proper lighting and the omission of certain facts. My profiles -- with the proliferation of hookup apps and websites like Adam4Adam and Manhunt, I had about six profiles running concurrently -- featured my face along with the obligatory shirtless pics and a playful description of me. I got some attention, but not from the caliber of guys I felt I deserved. My looks, as validated by the very men I was rejecting, gave me license to be more selective. As I grew more selective, my profiles grew less playful.
I erased my face. I added more shirtless pics and naked pics; I worked out harder; I left my descriptions blank so I would have nothing to blame for a guy not messaging me back, other than his own "preference. Some guys can put aside their personal feelings with a studied yet cool sense of detachment; they can allegedly just have fun and not take this silly thing too seriously. But I'm not one of them. I take everything too seriously. I would wait with bated breath for a response from a guy and if it didn't come I would wonder what was wrong with me.
Was it something I said or didn't say? Am I not muscular enough? Am I not masculine enough? Am I too black? Guys that I would strike up a casual conversation with immediately became potential boyfriends. We would either meet and have sex and I'd never see him again or we'd casually text until one or both of us lost interest. Some times, we'd meet and I'd face my rejection in-person. Were we to meet in another, less sexually-charged way, things would probably be different. Giving all the goods off the bat, however, takes the surprise and spontaneity out of meeting each other.
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Read more First of all: Hide your profiles, or delete them, for at least a month. This is not the right frame of mind to meet anyone. Would you go to the movies if going to the movies made you feel miserable? Take a breather and focus on other ways that you enjoy spending your time. This is a bit self-defeating. Imagine reading an advertisement for a product you were interested in, with a footnote that read: Here are some tips on how to fine-tune your page: Imagine me coming over to your home. You would think I was annoying. Which is maybe judgmental of me! But there you go.
Your profile is too long. You are a fascinating person with a broad range of interests and accomplishments. You have included them all here. Think about the real-life parallel: You would share just enough information to intrigue her.